April122014

Sometimes I get in a bit over my head

I think I can be everything at once.

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March102014

My social attitude has been weird lately.

A self reflection- sometimes I need to mull things over and blah it all out to figure out what’s going on.

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September42013

Solitude

So every now and then, the holidays come

and I almost always opt to stay down south and my housemates, my boyfriend and our mutual friend go up north, to family and such

and since I like to make my time with my family sparse, so I can fully appreciate them when I do see them, I tend to stay here

and mooost of my other friends go elsewhere as well

and I remember that I’m pretty much not at all sociable anymore

and I get to a point where I haven’t spoken out loud to anyone in days

and it’s so weird

I love the solitude, it so nice to have time to think, and just chill and be with myself

But I also get a little lonely

and I’m gonna forget how to words because I haven’t had a verbal conversation with anyone for too long

and this is when I get most active on tumblr

March212012

There’s something about the Uni life

Somehow I like it better on rainy days.

Wednesdays are my day off and yet I got up at nine. 

Went off for a swim, had some breakkie and read through my journalism work,

Came home got myself dressed and am planning the Lasagne I shall make tonight.

I’m making laaarge non-vegan and and small vegan one for the family.

I’m excited. Should be pretty easy to simply substitute. 

Imitation Meat crumbles for meat

vegan cream cheese (toffuti) and sheese- instead of cream and cheese

Should be relatively simple.

Will probably beeee deliciousssss.

March202012

My hair has been red since…..

2007? Going blonder or redder here and there, but I’ve only been a brunette once. And that was five years ago. Woaaah. Time to shake things up,yes?

Brown it is.

1PM

Oh the horror of wasted hours and evacuation.

Worst thing ever.

Time: 2:40pm Tuesday

Location: Dining room table

Sustenance: Mug of Earl grey

Today:

  • 1 hour lecture on the Artist and Word.
  • Evacuation due to a fire burning away and the shipping yards next door (therefore I stayed up til 4:30am this morning for NO REASON)
  • Home again, rant at Isaac
  • Tip shop trip- find yet another vest.
  • Soup Stop for yums
  • OpShop stop- find myself a pirate shirt (fuck yesh)

Remaining workload:

  • Prepare online journal for my VisCom class
  • Prepare blog for E-Media class

Approximate time needed: 2 hours

Approximate time to be had: 2 days

Tomorrow: Day off- but Skype Chat with Erin!! fuckyeehh!

I only got an hour sleep- only to not even have a Crit.

And now I have to stay awake- so I don’t fuck up my sleep cycle.

1AM

Oh the horror of homework and intensely terrible procrastination.

I think I am getting worse.

Time: 2:50 am

Location: Dining room table

Sustenance: Mug of Earl grey

Work done today:

  • 5 Typography experiments
  • 1 found article for Journalism
  • 2 Journalism readings
  • 2 hour journalism lecture
  • 1 hour journalism tutorial

Remaining workload:

  • Preparation of 10 minute power point of Typography experiments
  • research on similar styles of work
  • research on typefaces used

Approximate time needed: 2 hours

Approximate time to be had: 30 min

Tomorrow: 6 hours of VisCom and critique session.

I am a terrible student.

But maybe I’ll be fine….

March32012

The nicest of days

This is a nice day

Listening to acoustic music

whilst drinking my hot choc in my soup mugs

in a big warm jumper

whilst the outside world drizzles at my sunroom windows

It’s not intrusive

it’s just saying- hi there, it’s really crappy out here, but look at how warm you are, and how cosy you are, and how happy you can be from a simple combination of comforts.

Being happy is so simple for me, and I really really hope that never changes.

12PM

Image or health?

SO the idea is that the word ‘fat’ is a scary, horrible, and harsh insult, right?

Am I the only one that doesn’t find it that insulting?

Thoughts?

Really. When people refer to me as ‘cuddly’ ‘squishy’ ‘curvy’, these are all lovely. I’m more than happy to be all of these things. But it’s usually pretty obvious that these lovely friends/acquaintances of mine are avoiding one specific word, that taboo among women, that dreaded state: ‘fat’.

There are so many things I find more insulting. When people say ‘fat’ they are insulting image more than they are insulting health, and for me, being comfortable with my image- hell I like my body this size- it just doesn’t really hold any sting. My boobs are sometimes inconvenient, but mostly I just have nice cleavage. I like the shape of waist to hip and I’m really starting to enjoy large thighs on women. Plus, I adore beach swimming, and the buoyancy is simply awesome. As well as the fact that it takes over 3 hours for me to start getting cold, even at night.

So I like my body, so to call me ‘fat’ I take as nothing more than an observation of what is truly there. I am fat. This is in absolutely no way a fish for sympathy or compliments or comfort. This is me expressing my complete lack of fear of this word.

Now, to insult my health- yeah that does sometimes get to me, because I do really wish to be healthier. I am fat because I am ridiculously self indulgent when it comes to food, and pretty god damn lazy when it comes to exercise (aside from swimming). So if ‘fat’ is an insult to my health- it does touch on an insecurity.

For women to be dying so frequently of eating disorders, I really think the connection between weight/size to image security needs a solid battering. Our society has fucking harsh standards, and though it is circulated and exacerbated by the media of magazines, films, television, the change has to start with us. Women and men as individuals to accept ourselves. If we hate ourselves for our weight, it’s not a wonder we expect others to hate us for it. 

So accept yourself. Accept what you are and what you aren’t and maybe you’ll start noticing that not only do you find yourself but other women and men of varying sizes to be not only totally acceptable, but attractive.

I am fat, feel free to observe so- because I don’t feel this should be inherently offensive. It isn’t. So don’t act like it is.

March22012

Hey guys

Just letting you know I’m awesome.

For reasons I shall divulge in the not so distant future.

OOhh the mystery!

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